I have a tendency to be unable to say no. I admit it --- I get excited at the prospect of holding church officership, chairing fundraisers, and planning parties. I like being thanked when it's over and being respected for sharing my time. What I don't like is that sense of obligation that I feel when someone asks me to do something that I don't feel passionate about. The voice inside me says, "Say no, say no, SAY NO!!!!" and suddenly out of my mouth pops, "Sure, I'd love to help you with X." ARGGGHHHHH!!!! Why do I keep doing this to myself?!?!? I need to start taking on projects on my own terms, and not out of any sense of obligation.
Read this blog entry. Expresses my thoughts on the direction I want to go in exactly.